sleepless wreckless eyes
eternal nights of tiredness
i wake up and scream
and you’re still not there
i wake up and dream
and you’re still not there
i wake up, falling to the floor
and you’re still not there

my every limb is aching
craving wanting needing
missing loving kissing
stagnant minutes of
blurred days and blotted nights
pretence in the lie
you live in your absence
from me standardly

don’t quite understand
comprehend apprehend
the remembrance
of your tenderness
and everyday habitual
routine of white lies
and misguided truths
missing you

unintentional conceptual
gestures of accidental
faithless memories
drowned hopes and promises
blew out the candles
outspoken wishes
erased the romantic
ideal of your former self

itching bewitching
pretending my
existence doesn’t hurt
selective hearing
blinkered eyes
broken skin
tea tree and jasmine
a bird with no wings.